Every year, we make resolutions that never seem to stick. However, this year is going to be my year. I am determined to make new changes in my life to better not only myself but Parker as well. As said before, he deserves the world. He deserves to see his mommy be happy with what she has done in her life. The year 2018 was so disappointing. I felt as if I was drowning with trying to balance my work and social life. I told myself that 2018 was going to be my year last year and well....you all know the rest. I don't really feel like repeating what happened. The past is in the past and now I look into my future. “There shall always be that voice that will tell you how you are wasting your time and ability, how you shall fail, how some tried and failed, why your prevailing slips are indications of your future doom, why you are unworthy to dare, why your background mismatches your vision and aspiration, why your personality misfits your mission and how arduous the errand is. You have a choice. You have your thought. You have what burns in you that tells you how you can make it. Though the world may be interested in your success, it is much interested in your slips and mediocrity as-well. Your vision must keep you in your mission. Dare in wisdom. Dare unrelentingly. Ponder!” ― Ernest Agyemang Yeboah Last year, I became vegetarian. Yes, I don't eat meat. Do I keep Parker from meat? No. I want him to be able to make the choice when he is older to either eat meat or not eat it. It isn't right for me to decide for him. It has been hard to go straight from being a meat eater to not being one at all. I've been tempted a lot with the amazing smells of turkey, ham, hamburger, etc. It is really about the seasonings. I have cooked a lot more at home since becoming vegetarian. That in itself is a big improvement towards being healthier. Although I eat a lot of vegetables and fruits, I still have to manage taking vitamins daily. That is a real struggle for me since taking pills every day is not easily remembered. I've literally had to put all the vitamins by my bedside so they are the first things that I take in the mornings. My memory isn't the best at the moment. The stress of work, trying to find a new place to move to, Parker waking me up during the night, etc., is taking a toll on me. Slowly but surely, I am managing my stress in a more positive way. When Parker isn't with me, I get as much sleep as possible and also, I meditate. It might be silly to do it but it does work! According to zenhabits.net, there are some tips and tricks on how to practice mediation.
For year 2019, I am really going to focus on mediating more often. It does help me when I am stressed out. That is one of my goals for this year, mediate more to say sane! Another goal that I have is to improve topics that I talk about in my podcast. Yes, I do have a podcast and I have had several listeners listen to it so far! I am excited. You all can check it out at:
www.anchor.fm/jaclyn-barker.com I am also available on other platforms. The podcast is called Free Reverie. 1. Obviously the Anchor app 2. Apple podcasts 3. Google Podcasts 4. Spotify 5. Breaker 6. Castbox 7. Overcast 8. Pocket Casts 9. RadioPublic I named the podcast Free Reverie because Free is another word for Independent and Reverie is another word for meditation. I started this podcast around February or so last year. I was still trying to find a job and I was bored. I was told that I talk enough so I should just go for it! :P I did and now it is slowly starting to take off. I have some people that I will be interviewing soon! So be on the lookout for that. I will mention that I haven't been so open about the podcast on Facebook because I do have family on there. The podcast is explicit and inappropriate at times. I am getting out of my shell and talking about things that most would be too scared to talk about. The topics range from social media to sex to relationships. I talk about everything! It is just awkward for family to know about my sex life, so I haven't really said anything about it. With that being said, I need to practice what I preach. I explain on my podcast that we all need to be comfortable talking about things that we are most afraid of. It will open our minds and free us from hiding in fear of judgement. Face it, there will always be people who judge us. We just have to do what makes us happy. Who cares about what others think? Right?! I have a son, how do you think that happened in the first place? :P I just want to break out of my shell. Talking about my life is freeing and I enjoy it. If you want to start a podcast, the anchor app is a great way to start. It will distribute your content to other platforms. So, you don't even have to make any effort other than generating content that you think listeners will want to listen to. I honestly couldn't decide on a particular topic because there is so much that I want to talk about. So, I just made the podcast about everything and anything. It is categorized as social and culture, I believe. Anyways, I will say that if this is something you want to do then do it! As for the rest of this year, I plan on doing more Vlogs for my channel. It is the same name as my podcast because I will be distributing some content that is on my podcast to the YouTube Channel. If you want to take a look at it, be my guest. The reason for doing any of this is to spread positive thinking around the world. If we think more positive thoughts then we are bound to have a more positive life. I can't just say that I will be positive, I have to live it. So, I am taking control of what I do. Our society is full of negativity...too much of it, if you ask me. We literally can't do anything without someone being offended or being picked on, etc. With all of this negativity, it is creating a world full of hatred and frustration. I want to make a change, if I can. A small amount of effort, such as starting a podcast or Vlog, could impact the lives of a few people out there. That is just less negativity all around. Like I said, I have to live it not just say it. I hope that you all can take some of my advice and make a more positive impact on your lives so that you can live better and do better. Overall, 2018 has been a roller coaster. A journey that I will never want to go through again. Even though it was terrible, it did provide life lessons that I will carry on with me for my future. I know that I am capable of raising my son on my own, for sure. I will be more aware of my finances so I will never go down the road of humiliation when not being able to pay a bill on time. I will be more attentive towards my health. I can't stand the thought of something happening to me in a way that would leave Parker growing up without a mom. I am not doing this all for Parker though. I am doing it for myself because I deserve to make something of myself. I deserve to have control of my life. I am doing it for me so that way I am happier which, in the long run, will make Parker happier. The year 2019 will be my year.
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